How are you celebrating love on this Valentine's Day? Will it be love for another or love for yourself?
I love Valentines Day and Valentines Night too! It's not all about going out on a hot date or even about having a partner in my life. For me it's about enjoying the celebration of love.
I've have so many aspects of love in my life. My children, my siblings and parents, good friends, new friends and my partner. I intend to be celebrating their love as well as mine.
Yes, I do have love for myself too.
I love that I am more independent, confident, healthy, loving and loved.
Some of you know that my husband died in 2020 leaving me reeling and bereft. He was a high functioning alcoholic and he dropped down on the kitchen floor one morning and died in my sons arms. I wasn't there. I was fetching my other son. I wasn't allowed to see him as it was during Covid -19.
I received his belongings 6 weeks afterwards. His blood stained clothes, wallet, watch, keys and mobile phone was left on the front door step in a plastic bag. His ashes arrived on the same step two weeks after that.
I loved him completely. I loved him so much that I forgot about myself during those last few years with him. I lost myself and forgot to take care of myself and worse, I forgot I was worthy of love. I berated myself about not being there that morning. Mostly I felt guilty that I didn't know how to help him enough to stop him drinking himself to death. He was 53.
I moved to Cirencester to be near a dear friend and away from the place of sadness. I moved We Love Beauty with me and those first clients in Cirencester were so supportive. You made me laugh - and cry sometimes - and I found a generous and supportive community here.
I realised then that love takes many guises from the love given from our families, children, lovers, acquaintances, colleagues and friends. You showed me compassion and shared your stories too.
It's almost 3 years ago now and in those years We Love Beauty has grown and so have I. I love and am loved.
You, my clients, have helped me remember that I am worthy of love. All the support you have given me. Those chats in the clinic, exchanging stories, tears and laughter and seeing how each of you have gained confidence from the treatments over the last three years. Mostly, I recognise that you have helped me piece my fractured life back together.
This Valentines Day I will be celebrating love with those I love to remind myself that I am blessed to have you all in my life so I'd better enjoy every minute.
Happy Valentine's Day.
with love
Jane
Comentarios